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Friday, January 27, 2017

MY DAY by ARS (Romanization and English translation)

...because no one upload the romanization one.and i have free time before the interview, so here it is. thank you @igot7_MarKP heeee.....

MY DAY by ARS (Romanization and English translation)

Written and produced by : Ars, No day and Chloe
Sang by : Choi Young Jae (Ars)




ROMANIZATION

ileum achim nun-eul tteoss-eul ttae
nado moleuneun gongheoham-eul neukkyeo baby
jigeumdo ne moningkol-eul gidalyeo
sigyeui sigan-eul hwag-inhae jam-e cwihaessjiman

mom-eul kkaewo nan bakk-e naga
na neowa gat-i geonildeon jeong-geojang-i
eoneusae na igsughaejyeo ga
nan oneuldo nega eobsneun halue

nae haluhalu neo eobsnuen sungan-i
naege sijagdeol jul mollass-eo
Baby It's You neol hyanghan nae mam-i
swibge jabhiji ga anh-a na
niga anin geos gat-a

nae haluneun ne do gadeughae
nega eobsneun nan hollo nam-a
ne modeun ge naui halue pago deul-eowa
Oh Baby It's You

mom-eul kkaewo nan bakk-e naga
na neowa gat-i geonildeon jeong-geojang-i
eoneusae na igsughaejyeo ga
nan oneuldo nega eobsneun halue

nae haluhalu neo eobsnuen sungan-i
naege sijagdeol jul mollass-eo
Baby It's You neol hyanghan nae mam-i
swibge jabhiji ga anh-a na
niga anin geos gat-a

nae haluneun ne do gadeughae
nega eobsneun nan hollo nam-a
ne modeun ge naui halue pago deul-eowa
Oh Baby It's You

Oh Oh Ohh ~
Oh Oh Ohh ~

seubgwancheoleom nan neoleul saeng-gaghae
hansungando neol nan ij-eun jeog-i eobs-eo
nae haluneun yeojeonhi geudaelo neoege meomchwojyeo

nae haluhalu neo eobsnuen sungan-i
naege sijagdeol jul mollass-eo
Baby It's You neol hyanghan nae mam-i
swibge jabhiji ga anh-a na
niga anin geos gat-a

nae haluneun ne do gadeughae
nega eobsneun nan hollo nam-a
ne modeun ge naui halue pago deul-eowa
Oh Baby It's You

Oh Oh Ohh ~
Oh Oh Ohh ~

ENGLISH TRANSLATION

when I open my eyes in the early morning
I feel an emptiness that I dont even know baby
I am still waiting for your morning call
I check the time on the clock
I fell asleep but I wake myself up and go outside
The bus stop that I walked with you together
Before I knew it I'm getting used to it
Today is again, a day without you

My each day the moment without you
I didnt know it'll happen to me baby
It's you I can't hold onto my heart that is going towards you
I don't think I am myself
My day is filled with you
I am left alone without you
Everything is digging into my day
Oh baby it's you

I wake myself up and go outside
The bus stop that I walked with you together
Before I knew it I'm getting used to it
Today is again a day without you

My each day the moment without you
I didnt know it'll happen to me baby
It's you I can't hold onto my heart that is going towards you
I don't think I am myself
My day is filled with you
I am left alone without you
Everything is digging into my day
Oh baby it's you

Like a moment I think of you
To me there was not even for one moment
That I have forgotten about you
My day is still stopped at you as it is

My each day the moment without you
I didnt know it'll happen to me baby
It's you I can't hold onto my heart that is going towards you
I don't think I am myself
My day is filled with you
I am left alone without you
Everything is digging into my day
Oh baby it's you

Translated by: @igot7_MarKP
Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J3K4bCbMPY4

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Wednesday, January 11, 2017

It Hurts

Those memories.. it hurts...



IT HURTS by GOT7 

Words I can never hear from you
I remember your words
Telling me to just stay by your side
Why does my wounded heart
Keep searching for you

Now that you leave me and whatever you do
I hope that you think of me
That your days without me
Are as sad as mine
Why am I the only one in pain
Why do I miss you all day like this again

It digs deep inside
Your actions, the way you talk, every little thing becomes crystal clear
Why does my foolish heart do this
Why am I hurting more
I don’t get it at all
Your callous expression hurts me
I’m in a lot of pain

The days I spend without you, they hurt so much
How did you and I end up like it, it hurts so much

I see all the things I did with you
When I see how you’re happy without me
A part of my heart aches
I hope that you are unfortunate with your current man

Now that you leave me and whatever you do
I hope that you think of me
That your days without me
Are as sad as mine
Why am I the only one in pain
Why do I miss you all day like this again

It digs deep inside
Your actions, the way you talk, every little thing becomes crystal clear
Why does my foolish heart do this
Why am I hurting more
I don’t get it at all
Your callous expression hurts me
I’m in a lot of pain

The days I spend without you
They hurt so much
How did you and I end up like it
It hurts so much

Now that you leave me and whatever you do, I hope that you think of me
When I walk without you, I look so insignificant
Why am I the only one in pain
Why do I love you all day like this again

Every day passes and my heart still hurts
But you are completely fine
You won’t even think about memories when
We laughed when we enjoyed things together and cried when we fought
Now it’s a path of no return
I keep getting tired, I can’t see the path in front of me
Between calm and passion, which is the answer
Why is my heart ahead of my head

It digs deep inside
Your actions, the way you talk, every little thing becomes crystal clear
Why does my foolish heart do this
Why am I hurting more
I don’t get it at all
Your callous expression hurts me
I’m in a lot of pain

The days I spend without you,
They hurt so much, how did you and I end up like it, it hurts so much

This is what I’m telling you
I hope that you listen to this song



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Singer: GOT7
Translation : kpopviral.com
Youtube video: JYPE https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ois1ldUoO7M

Sunday, November 6, 2016

Regrets



Everyone have some regrets in their life. During childhood, when we started to remember things, we certainly have some sort of regrets. Even at such a small age, we do have regrets. For example regrets in making choices.

Regrets of choosing ice cream instead of some chocolate bar because the taste of the latter might be better. Regrets of choosing chocolate flavored ice cream instead of chocolate mint or cookies and cream one. Bigger regrets like watching cartoon while other kids have fun playing outdoors. Or even regrets of making the younger one fell down over some cookies instead of just share with them, that cause us to be punished by parents.

In teenagers life, in middle or high school, when the world seems a whole lot bigger. There were more regrets that we did because there are more choices. Regrets of choosing a not so popular club when you could choose a better one but you had already registered and it was not easy to change them. You end up have to force yourself to every meetings as its such a pain and it is actually not to your likes...at all..



About friends, on regrets of choosing on who we hang out with. Regrets of being stuck with some people for a whole year and they actually didnt do any good to you. Instead of choosing one friend that see good in you and bring out the potential in you, but you only realize it a bit later. Because in the end we knew who are the best friends vs just-pretend-to-be-good-friends. Regrets of ending a good friendship with someone because we didnt realize that they are important to us. When we woke up, they had left us and it is impossible to patch up the broken strings.

In adulthood, (i still consider myself teenager, thank you) there are much more regrets. A bigger regrets that may lead to a bigger consequences. Work, family, finance, friendship and even to some people, in love or as they called it, relationship. We end up keep thinking about them, about those regrets. The thoughts of them keep pestering us especially when we are alone, why we made this decision instead of those..

The truth is we are mere humans. Who dont know where we might end up by making a certain decision. Who completely clueless, no, maybe partially clueless about what might suddenly happened after a choice is made.

So just let it go. Dont let those regrets eat you up. Because if you do, you will never had that peace of mind, you will always be regretful in whatever you do. We learn from experiences. We learn from others. We make a decision base on what we are taught since childhood. We learn from those ettiques taught by our community.

If there are some undesirable consequences, and usually there always be because we cant control all things in life, the best way is to correct them as much as we can. And thats it, not more than that. We have done what we can. As to correct them, apologize always seems to be one of the ways. After that, let it go.. but dont forget them. They are our best guidelines for our next choices in life.


Remember, let them go but dont forget them.


p/s: Currently in love with these people. ekekeke #BOICE 😄

Sunday, March 20, 2016

Routine

Assalamualaikum...

Berhabuk lagi blog ni. Seperti biasa aku bukannya ada masa yang banyak untuk menjadi penggerak tetap blog ni. Sekarang dah masuk final year.. aku harap la final year. Again, it is not uncommon for a medical student to be extend for another 6 months. Bukan apa, untuk memastikan yang kami layak berada di luar sana tanpa membahayakan nyawa pesakit. Bak kata org kelantan, without jeopardize the life of the patients. Gittew.

I am glad that i took medicine as my course. Walaupun sebelum ni mcm denial dan anger phase, sekarang aku dah masuk fasa acceptance. Being in 5th year, had opened my eyes a bit. Ye lah dah final year kalau still ada perasaan menyesal tu, akak nasihatkan silalah tukar course, bak kata dr Z. I also didnt find any other course that can meet up with my expectation, enthusiasm and craveness for knowledge. Heh. Ye la tu.. haha

I always took an easy way all this time. Tetapi akhir akhir ni baru sedar yang aku kena keluar dari kepompong selesa aku. Not afraid to talk when you didnt do anything wrong. Say it loud what your opinions are. That is what i trying to be now. I want to get out from my daily routine because it kind of boring to stay the same.

Apalah yang aku merepek ni. Hadam je la kawan2.

Currently, on the way to faculty. Harini ada kelas dgn Mr Khai. Sekarang tgh posting ortho.

Ya Allah, tanamkanlah cintaku dengan ortho posting. Ok sampai sini dulu.

Wassalam

Thursday, December 31, 2015

Senior Paeds Posting






Salam and good morning everybunny in ground holes,

Berdebu, berhabuk dan bersawang dah blog ni. Boleh dpt multiple trigger wheeze atau asthma ni.

This is my story.

I have just entered a new posting for this fifth year. It is senior paediatric posting. A legendary posting that every senior have passed down many stories to us. My friend that had pass this posting also tells different kind of grim, ruthless stories about it. 

Now im here to experience it myself.

First day was okay. It was great actually. We are anticipating this posting so much since the beginning of fifth year. Lecturer who was told to be very strict and fierce is very kind on that day.

Second day, some of us had make some mistakes. 

On 3rd day, we were scolded to our bones. It was 2 hours of gloomiest awkward, cringing situation. We were force to admit our mistakes. At the end, some of us admitted their mistakes. Me? No. Im just too coward to defend myself. Even i didnt do wrong. That was my thought.

My mind was full of why and if. If only we know what will happened we will be very very like VERY meticulous in what we are doing. We will make sure our comrades do their job so we will not be scolded together. If we just asking and confirming many times regarding our jobscope and tasks, these wouldnt happen. I became emotionally upset, i blame those who did wrong. I punished them by not talking to them for a whole day.

However, ifs are words of despair that you shouldnt keep.

When i was alone, i thought about it more. I became more angrier, cried and even laughed. All bipolar symptoms emerged. (Or is it disorganize behaviour?) I blame them more and more. I am regretting more and more.

But.

Suddenly, a thought strikes me. 

The lecturers did it for us. For our future.

For us to be a responsible later in our life. It was not really a big issue, but they make it a chaos so later we will be careful in our every actions. Even on little tiny minute things. 

Our jobs will involved other people lives. They didnt want us to be ignorant and irresponsible towards our jobs. 

Plus when one of our comrades did wrong a whole group will be mark as also at fault. Why? They want us to be a good teammates. When other did wrongly, correct them right away. Not just look at them and laugh at how silly they done it. 

No. We have to work as a team. Try completing our job ourselves but also make sure that everyone can do their job too. Give a helping hand when needed. So the patient life wouldnt be jeopardize. 

Now i understand. They didnt hate us. If not why would they become a lecturer. An educator. A teacher. It was really for us. Really.

Minggu pertama yang banyak pengajaran. Rasa macam dah ada MDD setiap hari. Dah lengkap semua kriteria. Makan pon sekali sehari. Mmg legend. Haha boleh kurus kalau setiap minggu macam ni.

Thats all for my new year post... waaaa dah tahun 2016. Lagi 6 bulan exam final aka professional 3 exam. Cuak... 

My new year resolutions? 

I will think about that later. Haha its too much and couldnt fit in one entry.   

Nevertheless, anyone who read this post please pray for us. Pray that we will be the best. The toughest. The kindest. The warmest. The best doctors in future. Doctors that people will believe in. To trust in. InshaAllah.



Wassalam.


Friday, June 26, 2015

FINAL YEAR

Assalamualaikum,

Ehem Ehem. *paroxysmal cough followed by whoop. Clears throat.

Agak lama blog ini menyepi tanpa sebarang post hasil nukilan sendiri. Nak kata busy, i dont think so. Selain dari baca buku dan pergi hospital dan hadir lecture dan misi memenuhkan logbook, i am not that busy actually. Plus aku tak suka sangat baca buku. True story. Nak kata letih, tak jugak. Lebih kepada perasaan malas. Lack of drive orang Melayu kata (baca: Malaysia) aku bukan racist. Dah berapa kali buka dashboard. Taip title. Termenung cari isi. Minimize Tab. Bukak KMPlayer. Lagu berdentum. Tutup laptop. Tidur. Haih Haih.

Alhamdulillah, Next 2 months I will be in 5th year aka final year. Cuak. Takut. Gementar. Excited. Hopeless. Fed up. Kerdil. Tak layak. Semua bercampur baur ibarat rojak buah ataupun ibarat bibimbap. yummeh. 

Rasa diri ni tak layak tu yang paling ketara. Iyelah.. sebelum ni bila dr tanya soalan tak boleh jawab, dimaafkan. 

"Itsokay, you are fourth year student. but you cannot pass if you didnt know this in your pro 3 exam"

kalau pasal skill klinikal pulak.

MO: "can you help me to do the pap smear?"
me: "sorry dr i didnt know how to do it." *sengih muka nak kena tumbuk
MO: "oh.. arent you a final year student?"
me: "no dr. we are fourth year" *sengih muka nak kena sepak
MO: "ohhh okay then. did you see any of your seniors?"
me: "ermm.. not sure dr.." *sengih lagi
MO: "okay2"
me: "errr sorry dr but can we observe the procedure?"

Haaaa tu je la pandai. Nak observe aje, padahal dah observe beribu kali masih ketar lutut nak buat. 
See. Kan dah cakap banyak perkara akan dimaafkan kalau masih bukan bergelar final year student.

Its too much responsibility.
Its too much burden.
To be A final year student. 

Sekarang masih rilek sebab masih berada di tahun ke 4. Elective Posting. Masih boleh guna ayat. 
"we are fourth year medical student.. bla.. bla.."

Tapi dalam masa 2 bulan lagi, title itu akan berubah.
Moga aku bersedia bila smapai waktunya.

Tapi bak kata kebanyakan pensyarah aku. The most important thing is to be a Safe Medical Doctor.

the end
Moga berjumpa lagi di lain kali.

Wassalam.

p/s: just finished blogwalking. i hope he will continue to write again. i really like his writing though.
Guys... Miss you.

Monday, April 13, 2015

This Life


Just how much is the world we live now worth?
Everything feel meaningless
Maybe I am little tired

What ideal should I visualize?
What hope should I embrace as I move on
The future is calling for us
Can you hear that voice now too

Even if it's something like the sparks of firework
That I can never catch hold of
Once more, once more,
I want to reach out with my hands

Everyone has their share of sorrow
But they also wish for a wonderful tomorrow
Just how much can I love this troubled world
When I lost my nerve?

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