FINAL YEAR

Assalamualaikum,

Ehem Ehem. *paroxysmal cough followed by whoop. Clears throat.

Agak lama blog ini menyepi tanpa sebarang post hasil nukilan sendiri. Nak kata busy, i dont think so. Selain dari baca buku dan pergi hospital dan hadir lecture dan misi memenuhkan logbook, i am not that busy actually. Plus aku tak suka sangat baca buku. True story. Nak kata letih, tak jugak. Lebih kepada perasaan malas. Lack of drive orang Melayu kata (baca: Malaysia) aku bukan racist. Dah berapa kali buka dashboard. Taip title. Termenung cari isi. Minimize Tab. Bukak KMPlayer. Lagu berdentum. Tutup laptop. Tidur. Haih Haih.

Alhamdulillah, Next 2 months I will be in 5th year aka final year. Cuak. Takut. Gementar. Excited. Hopeless. Fed up. Kerdil. Tak layak. Semua bercampur baur ibarat rojak buah ataupun ibarat bibimbap. yummeh. 

Rasa diri ni tak layak tu yang paling ketara. Iyelah.. sebelum ni bila dr tanya soalan tak boleh jawab, dimaafkan. 

"Itsokay, you are fourth year student. but you cannot pass if you didnt know this in your pro 3 exam"

kalau pasal skill klinikal pulak.

MO: "can you help me to do the pap smear?"

me: "sorry dr i didnt know how to do it." *sengih muka nak kena tumbuk

MO: "oh.. arent you a final year student?"

me: "no dr. we are fourth year" *sengih muka nak kena sepak

MO: "ohhh okay then. did you see any of your seniors?"

me: "ermm.. not sure dr.." *sengih lagi

MO: "okay2"

me: "errr sorry dr but can we observe the procedure?"

Haaaa tu je la pandai. Nak observe aje, padahal dah observe beribu kali masih ketar lutut nak buat. 

See. Kan dah cakap banyak perkara akan dimaafkan kalau masih bukan bergelar final year student.

Its too much responsibility.

Its too much burden.

To be A final year student. 

Sekarang masih rilek sebab masih berada di tahun ke 4. Elective Posting. Masih boleh guna ayat. 

"we are fourth year medical student.. bla.. bla.."

Tapi dalam masa 2 bulan lagi, title itu akan berubah.

Moga aku bersedia bila smapai waktunya.

Tapi bak kata kebanyakan pensyarah aku. The most important thing is to be a Safe Medical Doctor.

the end

Moga berjumpa lagi di lain kali.

Wassalam.

p/s: just finished blogwalking. i hope he will continue to write again. i really like his writing though.

Guys... Miss you.

This Life

Just how much is the world we live now worth?

Everything feel meaningless

Maybe I am little tired

What ideal should I visualize?

What hope should I embrace as I move on

The future is calling for us

Can you hear that voice now too

Even if it's something like the sparks of firework

That I can never catch hold of

Once more, once more,

I want to reach out with my hands

Everyone has their share of sorrow

But they also wish for a wonderful tomorrow

Just how much can I love this troubled world

When I lost my nerve?

-copypaste-

-codeblue-

Tomorrow's Memories

Because I want to keep that sunset
that I saw with you forever
I reached out my hand many times
Trying to touch it in the memories
Because neither the same scenery nor the same feelings
Could come back again

We look back at those shining dreams of the past
Sadness will spill even in those brand new futures
And because it will soak our heart
Everyone will stop and lose track of it
In the midst of seasons that come and go
What colour of tomorrow that will we draw?
If we strongly believe and even more...
What colour of future would await us?

-thequizshow-

p/s: dear heart, please move on..

#prayforIM529 #prayforMH370