MY DAY by ARS (Romanization and English translation)

...because no one upload the romanization one.and i have free time before the interview, so here it is. thank you @igot7_MarKP heeee.....

MY DAY by ARS (Romanization and English translation)

Written and produced by : Ars, No day and Chloe
Sang by : Choi Young Jae (Ars)

ROMANIZATION

ileum achim nun-eul tteoss-eul ttae
nado moleuneun gongheoham-eul neukkyeo baby
jigeumdo ne moningkol-eul gidalyeo
sigyeui sigan-eul hwag-inhae jam-e cwihaessjiman

mom-eul kkaewo nan bakk-e naga
na neowa gat-i geonildeon jeong-geojang-i
eoneusae na igsughaejyeo ga
nan oneuldo nega eobsneun halue

nae haluhalu neo eobsnuen sungan-i
naege sijagdeol jul mollass-eo
Baby It's You neol hyanghan nae mam-i
swibge jabhiji ga anh-a na
niga anin geos gat-a

nae haluneun ne do gadeughae
nega eobsneun nan hollo nam-a
ne modeun ge naui halue pago deul-eowa
Oh Baby It's You

mom-eul kkaewo nan bakk-e naga
na neowa gat-i geonildeon jeong-geojang-i
eoneusae na igsughaejyeo ga
nan oneuldo nega eobsneun halue

nae haluhalu neo eobsnuen sungan-i
naege sijagdeol jul mollass-eo
Baby It's You neol hyanghan nae mam-i
swibge jabhiji ga anh-a na
niga anin geos gat-a

nae haluneun ne do gadeughae
nega eobsneun nan hollo nam-a
ne modeun ge naui halue pago deul-eowa
Oh Baby It's You

Oh Oh Ohh ~
Oh Oh Ohh ~

seubgwancheoleom nan neoleul saeng-gaghae
hansungando neol nan ij-eun jeog-i eobs-eo
nae haluneun yeojeonhi geudaelo neoege meomchwojyeo

nae haluhalu neo eobsnuen sungan-i
naege sijagdeol jul mollass-eo
Baby It's You neol hyanghan nae mam-i
swibge jabhiji ga anh-a na
niga anin geos gat-a

nae haluneun ne do gadeughae
nega eobsneun nan hollo nam-a
ne modeun ge naui halue pago deul-eowa
Oh Baby It's You

Oh Oh Ohh ~
Oh Oh Ohh ~

ENGLISH TRANSLATION

when I open my eyes in the early morning
I feel an emptiness that I dont even know baby
I am still waiting for your morning call
I check the time on the clock
I fell asleep but I wake myself up and go outside
The bus stop that I walked with you together
Before I knew it I'm getting used to it
Today is again, a day without you

My each day the moment without you
I didnt know it'll happen to me baby
It's you I can't hold onto my heart that is going towards you
I don't think I am myself
My day is filled with you
I am left alone without you
Everything is digging into my day
Oh baby it's you

I wake myself up and go outside
The bus stop that I walked with you together
Before I knew it I'm getting used to it
Today is again a day without you

My each day the moment without you
I didnt know it'll happen to me baby
It's you I can't hold onto my heart that is going towards you
I don't think I am myself
My day is filled with you
I am left alone without you
Everything is digging into my day
Oh baby it's you

Like a moment I think of you
To me there was not even for one moment
That I have forgotten about you
My day is still stopped at you as it is

My each day the moment without you
I didnt know it'll happen to me baby
It's you I can't hold onto my heart that is going towards you
I don't think I am myself
My day is filled with you
I am left alone without you
Everything is digging into my day
Oh baby it's you

Translated by: @igot7_MarKP
Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J3K4bCbMPY4

 

It Hurts

Those memories.. it hurts...

IT HURTS by GOT7 

Words I can never hear from you
I remember your words
Telling me to just stay by your side
Why does my wounded heart
Keep searching for you

Now that you leave me and whatever you do
I hope that you think of me
That your days without me
Are as sad as mine
Why am I the only one in pain
Why do I miss you all day like this again

It digs deep inside
Your actions, the way you talk, every little thing becomes crystal clear
Why does my foolish heart do this
Why am I hurting more
I don’t get it at all
Your callous expression hurts me
I’m in a lot of pain

The days I spend without you, they hurt so much
How did you and I end up like it, it hurts so much

I see all the things I did with you
When I see how you’re happy without me
A part of my heart aches
I hope that you are unfortunate with your current man

Now that you leave me and whatever you do
I hope that you think of me
That your days without me
Are as sad as mine
Why am I the only one in pain
Why do I miss you all day like this again

It digs deep inside
Your actions, the way you talk, every little thing becomes crystal clear
Why does my foolish heart do this
Why am I hurting more
I don’t get it at all
Your callous expression hurts me
I’m in a lot of pain

The days I spend without you
They hurt so much
How did you and I end up like it
It hurts so much

Now that you leave me and whatever you do, I hope that you think of me
When I walk without you, I look so insignificant
Why am I the only one in pain
Why do I love you all day like this again

Every day passes and my heart still hurts
But you are completely fine
You won’t even think about memories when
We laughed when we enjoyed things together and cried when we fought
Now it’s a path of no return
I keep getting tired, I can’t see the path in front of me
Between calm and passion, which is the answer
Why is my heart ahead of my head

It digs deep inside
Your actions, the way you talk, every little thing becomes crystal clear
Why does my foolish heart do this
Why am I hurting more
I don’t get it at all
Your callous expression hurts me
I’m in a lot of pain

The days I spend without you,
They hurt so much, how did you and I end up like it, it hurts so much

This is what I’m telling you
I hope that you listen to this song

Singer: GOT7
Translation : kpopviral.com
Youtube video: JYPE https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ois1ldUoO7M

Regrets

Everyone have some regrets in their life. During childhood, when we started to remember things, we certainly have some sort of regrets. Even at such a small age, we do have regrets. For example regrets in making choices.

Regrets of choosing ice cream instead of some chocolate bar because the taste of the latter might be better. Regrets of choosing chocolate flavored ice cream instead of chocolate mint or cookies and cream one. Bigger regrets like watching cartoon while other kids have fun playing outdoors. Or even regrets of making the younger one fell down over some cookies instead of just share with them, that cause us to be punished by parents.

In teenagers life, in middle or high school, when the world seems a whole lot bigger. There were more regrets that we did because there are more choices. Regrets of choosing a not so popular club when you could choose a better one but you had already registered and it was not easy to change them. You end up have to force yourself to every meetings as its such a pain and it is actually not to your likes...at all..

About friends, on regrets of choosing on who we hang out with. Regrets of being stuck with some people for a whole year and they actually didnt do any good to you. Instead of choosing one friend that see good in you and bring out the potential in you, but you only realize it a bit later. Because in the end we knew who are the best friends vs just-pretend-to-be-good-friends. Regrets of ending a good friendship with someone because we didnt realize that they are important to us. When we woke up, they had left us and it is impossible to patch up the broken strings.

In adulthood, (i still consider myself teenager, thank you) there are much more regrets. A bigger regrets that may lead to a bigger consequences. Work, family, finance, friendship and even to some people, in love or as they called it, relationship. We end up keep thinking about them, about those regrets. The thoughts of them keep pestering us especially when we are alone, why we made this decision instead of those..

The truth is we are mere humans. Who dont know where we might end up by making a certain decision. Who completely clueless, no, maybe partially clueless about what might suddenly happened after a choice is made.

So just let it go. Dont let those regrets eat you up. Because if you do, you will never had that peace of mind, you will always be regretful in whatever you do. We learn from experiences. We learn from others. We make a decision base on what we are taught since childhood. We learn from those ettiques taught by our community.

If there are some undesirable consequences, and usually there always be because we cant control all things in life, the best way is to correct them as much as we can. And thats it, not more than that. We have done what we can. As to correct them, apologize always seems to be one of the ways. After that, let it go.. but dont forget them. They are our best guidelines for our next choices in life.


Remember, let them go but dont forget them.

p/s: Currently in love with these people. ekekeke #BOICE 😄

Routine

Assalamualaikum...

Berhabuk lagi blog ni. Seperti biasa aku bukannya ada masa yang banyak untuk menjadi penggerak tetap blog ni. Sekarang dah masuk final year.. aku harap la final year. Again, it is not uncommon for a medical student to be extend for another 6 months. Bukan apa, untuk memastikan yang kami layak berada di luar sana tanpa membahayakan nyawa pesakit. Bak kata org kelantan, without jeopardize the life of the patients. Gittew.

I am glad that i took medicine as my course. Walaupun sebelum ni mcm denial dan anger phase, sekarang aku dah masuk fasa acceptance. Being in 5th year, had opened my eyes a bit. Ye lah dah final year kalau still ada perasaan menyesal tu, akak nasihatkan silalah tukar course, bak kata dr Z. I also didnt find any other course that can meet up with my expectation, enthusiasm and craveness for knowledge. Heh. Ye la tu.. haha

I always took an easy way all this time. Tetapi akhir akhir ni baru sedar yang aku kena keluar dari kepompong selesa aku. Not afraid to talk when you didnt do anything wrong. Say it loud what your opinions are. That is what i trying to be now. I want to get out from my daily routine because it kind of boring to stay the same.

Apalah yang aku merepek ni. Hadam je la kawan2.

Currently, on the way to faculty. Harini ada kelas dgn Mr Khai. Sekarang tgh posting ortho.

Ya Allah, tanamkanlah cintaku dengan ortho posting. Ok sampai sini dulu.

Wassalam

Senior Paeds Posting

Salam and good morning everybunny in ground holes,

Berdebu, berhabuk dan bersawang dah blog ni. Boleh dpt multiple trigger wheeze atau asthma ni.

This is my story.

I have just entered a new posting for this fifth year. It is senior paediatric posting. A legendary posting that every senior have passed down many stories to us. My friend that had pass this posting also tells different kind of grim, ruthless stories about it. 

Now im here to experience it myself.

First day was okay. It was great actually. We are anticipating this posting so much since the beginning of fifth year. Lecturer who was told to be very strict and fierce is very kind on that day.

Second day, some of us had make some mistakes. 

On 3rd day, we were scolded to our bones. It was 2 hours of gloomiest awkward, cringing situation. We were force to admit our mistakes. At the end, some of us admitted their mistakes. Me? No. Im just too coward to defend myself. Even i didnt do wrong. That was my thought.

My mind was full of why and if. If only we know what will happened we will be very very like VERY meticulous in what we are doing. We will make sure our comrades do their job so we will not be scolded together. If we just asking and confirming many times regarding our jobscope and tasks, these wouldnt happen. I became emotionally upset, i blame those who did wrong. I punished them by not talking to them for a whole day.

However, ifs are words of despair that you shouldnt keep.

When i was alone, i thought about it more. I became more angrier, cried and even laughed. All bipolar symptoms emerged. (Or is it disorganize behaviour?) I blame them more and more. I am regretting more and more.

But.

Suddenly, a thought strikes me. 

The lecturers did it for us. For our future.

For us to be a responsible later in our life. It was not really a big issue, but they make it a chaos so later we will be careful in our every actions. Even on little tiny minute things. 

Our jobs will involved other people lives. They didnt want us to be ignorant and irresponsible towards our jobs. 

Plus when one of our comrades did wrong a whole group will be mark as also at fault. Why? They want us to be a good teammates. When other did wrongly, correct them right away. Not just look at them and laugh at how silly they done it. 

No. We have to work as a team. Try completing our job ourselves but also make sure that everyone can do their job too. Give a helping hand when needed. So the patient life wouldnt be jeopardize. 

Now i understand. They didnt hate us. If not why would they become a lecturer. An educator. A teacher. It was really for us. Really.

Minggu pertama yang banyak pengajaran. Rasa macam dah ada MDD setiap hari. Dah lengkap semua kriteria. Makan pon sekali sehari. Mmg legend. Haha boleh kurus kalau setiap minggu macam ni.

Thats all for my new year post... waaaa dah tahun 2016. Lagi 6 bulan exam final aka professional 3 exam. Cuak... 

My new year resolutions? 

I will think about that later. Haha its too much and couldnt fit in one entry.   

Nevertheless, anyone who read this post please pray for us. Pray that we will be the best. The toughest. The kindest. The warmest. The best doctors in future. Doctors that people will believe in. To trust in. InshaAllah.

Wassalam.

FINAL YEAR

Assalamualaikum,

Ehem Ehem. *paroxysmal cough followed by whoop. Clears throat.

Agak lama blog ini menyepi tanpa sebarang post hasil nukilan sendiri. Nak kata busy, i dont think so. Selain dari baca buku dan pergi hospital dan hadir lecture dan misi memenuhkan logbook, i am not that busy actually. Plus aku tak suka sangat baca buku. True story. Nak kata letih, tak jugak. Lebih kepada perasaan malas. Lack of drive orang Melayu kata (baca: Malaysia) aku bukan racist. Dah berapa kali buka dashboard. Taip title. Termenung cari isi. Minimize Tab. Bukak KMPlayer. Lagu berdentum. Tutup laptop. Tidur. Haih Haih.

Alhamdulillah, Next 2 months I will be in 5th year aka final year. Cuak. Takut. Gementar. Excited. Hopeless. Fed up. Kerdil. Tak layak. Semua bercampur baur ibarat rojak buah ataupun ibarat bibimbap. yummeh. 

Rasa diri ni tak layak tu yang paling ketara. Iyelah.. sebelum ni bila dr tanya soalan tak boleh jawab, dimaafkan. 

"Itsokay, you are fourth year student. but you cannot pass if you didnt know this in your pro 3 exam"

kalau pasal skill klinikal pulak.

MO: "can you help me to do the pap smear?"

me: "sorry dr i didnt know how to do it." *sengih muka nak kena tumbuk

MO: "oh.. arent you a final year student?"

me: "no dr. we are fourth year" *sengih muka nak kena sepak

MO: "ohhh okay then. did you see any of your seniors?"

me: "ermm.. not sure dr.." *sengih lagi

MO: "okay2"

me: "errr sorry dr but can we observe the procedure?"

Haaaa tu je la pandai. Nak observe aje, padahal dah observe beribu kali masih ketar lutut nak buat. 

See. Kan dah cakap banyak perkara akan dimaafkan kalau masih bukan bergelar final year student.

Its too much responsibility.

Its too much burden.

To be A final year student. 

Sekarang masih rilek sebab masih berada di tahun ke 4. Elective Posting. Masih boleh guna ayat. 

"we are fourth year medical student.. bla.. bla.."

Tapi dalam masa 2 bulan lagi, title itu akan berubah.

Moga aku bersedia bila smapai waktunya.

Tapi bak kata kebanyakan pensyarah aku. The most important thing is to be a Safe Medical Doctor.

the end

Moga berjumpa lagi di lain kali.

Wassalam.

p/s: just finished blogwalking. i hope he will continue to write again. i really like his writing though.

Guys... Miss you.

This Life

Just how much is the world we live now worth?

Everything feel meaningless

Maybe I am little tired

What ideal should I visualize?

What hope should I embrace as I move on

The future is calling for us

Can you hear that voice now too

Even if it's something like the sparks of firework

That I can never catch hold of

Once more, once more,

I want to reach out with my hands

Everyone has their share of sorrow

But they also wish for a wonderful tomorrow

Just how much can I love this troubled world

When I lost my nerve?

-copypaste-

-codeblue-

Kuatkanlah

Assalamualaikum..

final exam (read: Pro exam) is on next monday. cuak. takut. menggeletar. semua bercampur baur ibarat rojak. dalam kepala dah berserabut ibarat ribut taufan melanda dan menerbangkan segala neuron-neuronku yang berselirat. ok, hiperbola. lebih tepat berserabut ibarat bilikku yang macam tongkang pecah. (mentang2 roommate asyik balik rumah. muhasabah.)

mohon doa dari semua agar segalanya lancar. doa doktor lembut hati dan murah markah. doa agar lidahku tidak terbelit-belit dan tergagap-gagap dalam menuturkan bahasa Omputeh.  doa agar bahasa pesakit mudah difahami. doa agar segala sign dan symptom mudah agar dapat ku tebak apa provisional diagnosisnya. doa agar signnya jelas tanpa complicated overlapping disease. doa agar diskusiku bersama doktor dapat ku terangkan dan rungkaikan dengan jelas.

dan yang paling penting, doakan agar aku tidak lupa siapa diriku sewaktu musim exam ini, aku hambaNYA.. bukan hamba pada peperiksaan.. doa agar ibadahku tidak kutinggalkan. doa agar bulan Rejab ini dapat aku manfaatkan.. doa agar aku semakin dekat pada pencipta sekalian alam... amin..
 
jujur aku mohon doa kalian... doa dari seorang sahabat buat sahabat.

akhirnya, mohon doa agar kami semua lulus dengan cemerlang..

sekian coretan di petang hari...

p/s: reminder to myself too, always take care of your iman.. <3
mock exam on friday. wish me luck guys~ =)

iklan : (awaiting moment. at last, korra breakup with mako. *evil laugh)

Tomorrow's Memories

Because I want to keep that sunset
that I saw with you forever
I reached out my hand many times
Trying to touch it in the memories
Because neither the same scenery nor the same feelings
Could come back again

We look back at those shining dreams of the past
Sadness will spill even in those brand new futures
And because it will soak our heart
Everyone will stop and lose track of it
In the midst of seasons that come and go
What colour of tomorrow that will we draw?
If we strongly believe and even more...
What colour of future would await us?

-thequizshow-

p/s: dear heart, please move on..

#prayforIM529 #prayforMH370

I Need To Know

I need to know these answers
I need to find my way
Seize my tomorrow
Learn my yesterday
I need to take these chances
Let all my feelings show
Can't tell what's waiting
Still I need to go

I need to know..

p/s: may Allah ease.. ^_^

The Start Of Something New

Assalamualaikum..

gambar tak ada kena mengena =P

how's everyone life? are they good? happy? what do they eat? today? yesterday? how about tomorrow? oooohhh... how tired I am. everyday, wondering about what my friends in Egypt are doing. I hate the feeling of missing everyone. I'm missed  that auntie which I meet everyday sitting on the stairs of Metro station on my way to university, I even missed that guy who work at Mahallabiah shop. I'm missed people who I didnt know anything about them except they are student at Kasr El-Ainy Medical School and except that we bumped into each other at the food kiosk, their faces became familiar to me.

Kenapa? kenapa aku dah tak boleh jumpa dan tanya khabar mereka semua? Sebab aku dah memilih untuk berada di Malaysia. Tiada sebab yang konkrit. Hanya kerana Istikharah dan hatiku yang berat di sini apabila ditawarkan untuk menyambung pelajaran di UPM. oh ya, dan juga menilai nasihat dari mereka yang berada di sekelilingku... Jika benar ini jalanku, ia akan mudah bagiku, bisik hati kecilku. namun, isi hatiku turut berat untuk meninggalkan bumi yang sudah kuanggap seperti tanah airku. tanah tempat aku menuntut ilmu yang tidak kudapati di tempat lain. ilmu dunia dan ilmu akhirat. tanah di mana aku belajar erti berkorban. belajar erti tolak-ansur dengan ahli rumah. belajar bersabar dengan berbagai kerenah penduduk setempat.... yang paling penting tanah di mana keluarga kedua ku berada. GENX. aku rindu kalian... RINDU. hanya itu yang bisa aku nukilkan.

Sekarang di tempat baru, suasana baru, kawan baru... in the mode of adapting myself. hmmm, banyak yang kena aku belajar. di Mesir, 3 tahun belajar Perubatan, tahun ketiga baru aku temui cara belajar yang terbaik untuk aku. di sini baru 2 bulan, aku masih tercari-cari gaya study yang paling sesuai untuk aku dengan sistem pembelajaran dan pengajaran yang terlalu berbeza dengan Mesir. mungkin sewaktu menjadi intern nanti baru jumpa kot... it's hard, yes. but don't matter how hard, i have to try right? i dont want to give up before trying my best and whatever i can do. people said 'it's better die trying than to give up before trying'. gaya macam susah sangat je. exaggerrated response maybe..ahhah!

doakan aku sahabat. doakan aku kawan. doakan kita semua. ikhlaskan niat dalam menuntut ilmu. jangan kedekut ilmu, kongsi dengan semua. mana tahu ilmu yang kita dapat tu salah, mereka boleh memperbetulkan. study hard, study smart. like dr Ng said to my groupmates 'work hard, you'll be paid'. semat dalam dada kemas2. jika anda tidak mendapat keputusan yang diinginkan. ingat, anda tidak gagal, cuma kejayaan belum datang kepada anda. nasihat untuk diri sendiri jugak.. bukan jugak, memang nasihat untuk diri sendiri. diri sendiri banyak kekurangan. banyak.

Allah yusahhil! think positive.. everyone have their own stories, i want to make mine really meaningful to me, and to others...

pesanan seorang rakan "always take care of your iman.." smile  =)

wallahua'lam....

p/s: I really cant accept guys who bad mouthed his friends to others, especially to the opposite gender. malu la sikit brother. all this while, i thought guys friendship is sacred. dont destroy my belief. sekian.

Egypt and Ramadan

Assalamualaikum...

Dekat setengah tahun blog ni tidak bersentuh. mungkin kerana kekangan masa yang mengehadkan entry atau mungkin memang kerana sifat malas tahap tak ingat dunia. sekarang dah masuk bulan puasa. indeed, it's the first day of ramadan. dan ramadan kedua ku di bumi anbiya' ni. dah tak sesedih ramadan pertama tahun lepas. tahun lepas bukan main sayu habis.... rindu family la konon. hah

sorang ahli rumah dah pulang ke Malaysia, tinggallah kami berempat. memandangkan keadaan mesir yang masih kurang stabil, semua mahasiswi dinasihatkan untuk sembahyang terawikh di rumah. walaupun masih ada yang tetap berkeras untuk solat di masjid. tak ada 'zuuk' sembahyang di rumah katanya. kalau kat malaysia kan tiap2 malam terawikh kat masjid. aku hanya mengiyakan. berlainan dengan aku yang jarang solat di masjid, hanya adik-beradik lelakiku sahaja yang di'paksa' untuk solat di masjid bersama abi. yang perempuan pula solat di rumah bersama ummi. hanya beberapa tahun kebelakangan ini saja barulah kami satu keluarga solat terawikh di masjid kerana adik2 ku sudah besar panjang. cepat jugak masa berlalu kan?

jadi tinggallah kami (baca: aku dan ahli rumah) di mesir dan bersolat terawikh di rumah. alhamdulillah, solat terawikh jemaah pertama kami di mesir yang bukan berimamkan imam atau syeikh di masjid. kerana darurat kami turutkan. niat di hati mahu je kitorang langgar arahan Jaksi tapi tu lah takut pulak kami jadi beban pada org lain. mahunya ada rusuhan, kami hanya akan menyusahkan.. *ayat cliche. bak kata pepatah, memikul biawak hidup. (tak nampak kena mengena pun sebenarnya..ha2) biarlah.. asalkan kami menyenangkan yang lain.

rakyat Mesir pulak bukan main meriah sambut ramadan. bersihkan rumah. gantung tanglung yang berwarna-warni. gaya macam nak sambut raya kat Malaysia. org malaysia? huaargh.. lalala *lu pikir la sendiri. seingat aku tahun lepas kat Mesir ni, diorang siap agih2kan makanan dekat pemandu yang tengah memandu waktu azan maghrib.  xtahulah kalau kat malaysia ada jugak ke tak pasal time berbuka tu biasa org tgh duduk kat meja makan tunggu azan je. mungkin ada..

hmm.. ni lah apa yang aku rasakan pada ramadan tahun ni. ni baru awal ramadan, belum tahu lagi macam mana esok2nya. dan dengan itu, tu  ajelah coretan aku buat petang ini. mungkin kalau ada idea yang menggelunsur masuk ke benakku akan ku conteng lagi blog ni. kejadian yang berlaku macam2 tapi tak tahulah mana satu yang sesuai untuk aku paparkan pada umum. (gaya macam org femes..)

anyway, do pray for us and Egypt. we never knew whose prayer will be answer by God. =)
p/s: always take care of your iman.. ^_^ and happy fasting everyone! =D

wallahua'lam...

Tinggal Kenangan

assalamualaikum...

setahun meninggalkan blog ni, agaknya dah bersawang segala bagai. seingat aku entry terakhir kutulis tahun lepas sebelum bermulanya final exam. ni dah nak start final exam third year dah. oh ye, alhamdulillah, aku berjaya melepasi tahun dua. tentulah kerana rahmatNYA bukan kerana usahaku yang hanya 0.01 % menyumbang pada keputusan exam. dan bagi yang tak berjaya nak capai target tu, yakinlah Allah dah susun segalanya dengan terbaik, dan anda sebenarnya mendapat lebih dari orang lain. apa dia? hanya kalian yang tahu. =) .... terasa agak kekok bila nak start tulis balik. tak tahu nak mula dari mana. ye la, dah lama tak menulis dan mencari-cari idea, menggaru-garu kepala yang tak gatal untuk memerah otak yang dah beku bawah -4 degree celcius. (thinking...)

banyak yang dah berlaku tahun ni. ajkt PERUBATAN dah tukar jadi MTP, PERUBATAN dah ada 7 cawangan, dan kawan-kawan aku sekarang dah jadi orang yang aktif dan kuat dalam PERUBATAN. lupa nak bagitahu, PERUBATAN = persatuan pelajar sains kesihatan malaysia di Mesir.(ke dah pernah bagitahu sebelum ni? nevermind..) dan aku bangga punya sahabat-sahabat yang sanggup berkorban masa dan tenaga untuk kebaikan orang lain. buat video, meeting, muhasabah program yang lepas. buat artikel, dan itu semua time orang lain duk enak-enak study kat rumah... arigatou minna~ =) jasamu kukenang selalu, sungguh aku tak bisa jadi seperti kalian. two thumbs up~ and if i had thousand thumbs, thousand thumbs up~ =D

 banyak jugak aktiviti tahun ni, yang paling kuingat, setelah tiga tahun berada di Mesir, tahun ni aku berjaya menjejakkan kaki di Jabal Musa. tempat nabi Allah Musa bertemu dengan zat yang Maha Agung Pentadbir sekalian alam. excited + first time naik gunung + tempat nabi Musa pernah pergi = i must reach the peak~

perjalanan yang sungguh meletihkan. kami bertolak pada waktu malam dan macam-macam lagi ujian sepanjang perjalanan tu. nak-nak lagi masa bulan 1 hari tu, politik Mesir masih kurang stabil. bas kena tahan dengan askar/polis, pegawai pengiring punya kereta tiba-tiba tak boleh start. but the good thing is we have each other. so, seriously, i really enjoyed those difficult times. =D walaupun tengah stress-stress tu boleh lagi main teka-teki dan game dalam bas. memang la budak-budak medik kelas pertama. bakal-bakal doktor yang akan menggegarkan dunia perubatan di Malaysia.(rambling2)

sepanjang nak naik gunung sinai tu, hanya Allah yang tahu. mula-mula bahagia dan excited tapi bila dah 1/8 jalan tu, semangat dah mula luntur. nak turun balik ke apa dah tak tahu nak pilih. tapi sebab tengok kawan-kawan semangat bukan main. aku tak jadi nak patah balik. but the main point is, aku = medteam. hah! dah sah2 la susahkan orang. tup2, masa nak sampai kat puncak tu, aku dah korbankan tenaga 3 orang ajk bersama seorang musyrif medteam semata2 untuk teman aku naik. haila, serius menyusahkan orang lain yang ramai lagi perlukan support medteam. ajk medteam lain siap boleh tolong buat praktikal lagi tolong orang yang sakit dan tak larat nak naik. aku duk berlawan dengan diri sendiri sama ada patut pengsan kat situ ke, kat depan sikit ke, kat atas puncak ke.. tapi, last2 sampai jugak kat puncak, memang la anak manja. alhamdulillah sampai jugak kat puncak. dan hanya satu perasaan yang wujud dalam diri aku waktu tu, 'SYUKUR'

perjalanan turun tu, aku antara orang yang last sampai. (lagi sekali) semua orang dah letih. seterusnya kami bertolak pergi ke Dahab. macam cerita la kat sana. tak larat nak cerita, but i think 'pictures paint a thousand words'. layan~

tu je untuk post kali ni. doakan kami pelajar-pelajar medik kat sini yang bakal ambik exam final bulan 4 ni. (drumbeats..) huh, moga Allah permudahkan. amin =)

p/s: and always remember to take care of your iman, if its not you, who else do you think will do that? peace~ =)

wallahua'lam....

Syukur 21

Assalamualaikum...

akhirnya jari jemari ini rajin juga menaip setelah sekian lama tidak memerah otak untuk menghambur setiap detik perjalanku di sini. peperiksaan sudah masuk minggu kedua. sudah lepas 1 kertas physiology, tinggal lagi 4 kertas yang harus aku tempuh dengan sabar, insyaAllah. seperti tahun lepas, musim peperiksaan menjadi satu musim tarbiyah bagi aku. tanpa aku sedari. ya, tanpa aku sedari.

benar dan sungguh, musim peperiksaan memang 'silent zone' dan musim orang menjadi pentingkan diri sendiri. sebab semua orang ada keutamaan masing-masing. datang ke sini mahu menuntut ilmu, shouldn't waste your time though. (*aduh, terasa.) dan pada ketika inilah, banyak hati yang terluka, dengan rakan-rakan, dengan ahli beit. dan yang mana pada ketika ini semua pelajar PERUBATAN sepatutnya sibuk menelaah subjek peperiksaan, sebuah majlis ilmu diadakan. majlis ilmu yang popular dalam kalangan ahli PERUBATAN di universiti kaherah . kelas agama bersama Syeikh Rohimuddin.

"sesiapa yang tidak dapat melihat taqwa dalam diri orang lain, bererti tiada taqwa dalam dirinya..." kata syeikh. tersentak kami mendengar kalam beliau. ada yang menganggukkan kepala tanda bersetuju malah ada juga yang tersengguk menahan kantuk. kata syeikh lagi, " lihat sesuatu ujian atau kesusahan itu pada kebaikan yang terdapat padanya." sungguh aku tersentak lagi. dan kata-kata syeikh yang membuat aku tersedar, " kita ini sama sahaja, kita ini adalah kotak-kotak kosong yang jika diberi ujian, jika sabar maka ada sabar dalam kotak itu. jika syukur, maka ada syukur dalam kotak itu. bergantung kepada ujian dan kesusahan dan apa yang kita lalui. yang lain, sama sahaja."

buat yang ke sekian kalinya. aku ditarbiyah lagi di sini. nasihatku untuk diri sendiri jugak. pandanglah sesuatu dengan pandangan iman..^_^

wallahua'lam.

Make It Easy For Us

Assalamualaikum...

it's been a month since i wrote a post here. now, came up with something new. yeah, using english in my post like i've used in my oldest-already-deleted post when i make a preparation at international education center (Intec) last two years. why? why all of sudden? it's because i'm just finishing my blogrunning through one of the blog i admire. ringing me to my oldest post which was not in Bahasa. and of course, many errors i could remember...

novel in malaysia. gift from my aunt (i guess so)

practical anatomy exam is just in front of me. no doubt, lot more to read, memorize, etcetera etcetera. my brain is freezing as if i'm eating 'air batu campur'. cannot think. cannot talk. just cadaver. cadaver. cadaver. but still i've time to wrote this and share all kind of thing on fb and commenting on that and this status, thats weird. =,= it really is....

quiet. very quiet. i think i can hear the sound of needle fell on the floor. it's exam mode. everyone is busy with their own bussiness. own life. me too. but the silence wouldn't bother me much. and all this while i stay with my roomate so it's not a pure silence, thanks to her. but still, i'll go out as i feel bored. thats me. hang out with good friends and best friends. but during these study leave, it's not just regular hang out, we hang out with books and skulls and bones. alhamdulillah...

nevertheless, parents is the one you should never forget to update your news. they'll wait you for a whole day long, before you knew it. so give them a call. that should make you feel better. prime thing is taking care of your praying time... it's with you and Allah. whatever happens we're always his servants. so dont mess up thing just for an Exam...

final written is very very near. i'll give my effort and du'a, insyaAllah. pray for me and my friends... and arigatou nakama~ again. again. and again.
there's no more to say.
wallahualam.

p/s: pembetulan vocab dan grammar amatlah dialu-alukan. dalam proses nak melatih diri dengan bahasa asing balik.. moga dipermudahkan.. =)

Sibuk+Ikhlas : =)

Assalamualaikum...

final...final...final...
sejak akhir2 ni perkataan ni sering aku dengar. almaklumlah exam final 'just around the kona'. memang kitorang sebagai pelajar medik, apatah lagi yang mendapat tajaan ni, terpaksa ambil berat pasal result final ni. sebab jpa sangat ambil berat pasal result kitorang. result final la yang akan menentukan sama ada biasiswa kitorang akan dilanjutkan atau tidak. moga Allah permudahkan.

dan dekat2 nak exam ni pun, banyak jugak aktiviti2 yang berlangsung. seperti dalam post2 yang sebelum ni aku memang sangat tabik pada sahabat2 yang sudi menjadi ajk2 program contohnya, kerana tanpa mereka program takkan berjalan lancar. arigatou gozaimasu minna~ =) moga Allah balas jasa2 kalian. amin..

sebagai muhasabah diri aku yang hina ni jugak, setiap kerja yang diamanahkan tu perlulah disertai dengan niat yang ikhlas kerana Allah. merungut dan mengeluh perlulah dijauhi. walaupun kadang2 aku pun ter'mengeluh' dan ter'merungut'. ye la, kerja yang aku jarang2 buat tetiba kena buat. dahlah tahun satu honeymoon year. memang haru..haru betul. bila sibuk sikit terus aku rasa malas nak study ke, tolong kawan2 ke. tapi, alhamdulillah, aku punya teman2 yang bisa tegur aku, setiap kali aku terlupa.. =) gracias amigo...

ok, ada tutor pagi ni. moga Allah permudahkan..amin..

pandanglah sesuatu dengan pandangan iman... =)

wallahua'lam...

Mencintai-MU setulusnya...

Assalamualaikum...

 Tuhan aku malu
atas semua yang Kau beri
padahal diriku terlalu sering membuatMu kecewa...

entah mungkin aku terlena
sementara Engkau beri aku kesempatan
berulang kali agar aku kembali...

dalam fitrahku sebagai manusia
untuk menghamba padaMu
betapa tak ada apa-apanya aku di hadapanMu...

aku ingin mencintaiMu setulusnya
sebenar-benar aku cinta
dalam doa
dalam ucapan
dalam setiap langkahku...

aku ingin mendekatiMu selamanya
sehina apapun diriku
kuberharap untuk bertemu dengan Mu
ya Rabbi...

Amin...

kata2 yang selalu buat aku berfikir : pandanglah sesuatu dengan pandangan iman...insyaAllah, kita akan tenang... =)

peringatan untuk diri sendiri juga...

p/s: always take care of your iman.. (n_n)

wallahua'lam....